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Reflected glass in the upside down lake of the void. Then came ripples of written pages, filled with truths and falsities of lost loves, forgotten fools, and followed sages. The only way out was to submerge the darkest depths, for all was illusion. It was in that darkness, she would find her light; long sought happiness, inner peace, and strength she never knew she possessed.

©2015 jill terry | jillterry.com

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The Goddess Reign

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©2013 jillie
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Running in Shadows

To the mountaintop he must fly
Already halfway there
For the beast awaits his arrival
Calling him out loud and hard

He stands intimidating
Proud and gloating
A show of power
This soulless prowler

Luring him deeper
Under its spell
Trying to wrap round
Get that final hold

But this night is different
The tables being turned
For he wears her love
Like a shield of armor

And this night
He does not
Fly alone

©2012 jillie
jillterry.com


Don’t count me out ~

Sleep comes less easily
As time approaches
Worries set in

Fear becomes
Something entirely
Different

So many things
I would take back
I would change

Already happened
Already too late

As I come to the end
Of this neverending chapter
I know how I want it to end

But my wants no longer
Seem to match my needs

And so I acquiesce…

Because it’s the only choice
Ive been given

The only thing
Left for me to do

And while I may be down
I am most certainly not out

Not in life
Nor in death

I will see my way
Across this bridge

And take what awaits
On the other side

What is rightfully mine
Always will be

And has been all along

©2012 jill
Jillterry.com


BECOMING CHANGE

A strong desire to escape
Circumstances as they are
Turning to unrealistic fantasies

Nebulous dreams
Of things that don’t exist

Hindering me from pursuing
Formulating workable plans
Ambitions my heart nurtures

Nothing but dreams
Wishes by the heart made

Realizing my life is only mine to live
Only mine to control
Opening my eyes to immediate concerns

Worries that fill my heart
Flood my mind

Uncertainty distracting me
Interfering with my possibilities
Each time I endeavor
To alter unwanted circumstances

But I will become the change I desire
I will manifest my true aspirations
And each day will bring me closer
To the prosperity and richness

I’ve so long envisioned
Inside my mind
Felt so strongly
Inside my heart

I will dig deep
Inside myself
Find my strength
And become the change
I so desire

And no one will stop me
Or stand in my way

©2012 jill
Jillterry.com


MESSAGE RECEIVED

I haven’t seen or spoken to him since the day of her funeral.

We sat at the table with him and he made us laugh, with his stories and orneriness, just being himself. He was a pillar of strength, though the pain was clear in his eyes, he forced smiles for her sake and I found out that day, after forty-four years, he thinks that I am a pretty girl; and silly as it is, I felt about five years old.

I never was very close to him growing up, but over the last several years we’ve become more so. He amazes me with his wealth of knowledge and common sense, from a lifetime of living, lessons learned, mistakes made; and speaking his mind, shooting it straight, because that’s just who he is, when the wall comes down and he speaks his truth.

His knowledge of the world stems from a lifetime of reading and watching nothing but public television, for they never had cable television, or even a VCR. But pick a topic and he can talk it better than most.

I received a card from him today, a simple holiday greeting, inside at the bottom written in bold, underlined three times was one single word…LOVE and I sat alone, in my corner and cried.

For not only have I been selfishly wrapped in my own world, driving myself crazy inside my own mind, but I didn’t even think to send him a card, or bother to call and wish him Merry Christmas, and ask him how he was; his first one without her in nearly seventy years.

He’s lonely; horribly, terribly miserable and alone. Just as I am, but for very different reasons; but he remembered me and he made the effort, when the only person I’ve thought of for months now, is myself.

This was my wake-up call, my reality check if you will; that elements in my world have got to change, or another year, I simply will not survive.

Thank you, Grandpa, for giving me so much more than a holiday card and underlined three times, your love in bold…

©2011 Jill Terry


FINDING FAITH

Gifted wings
Wrapped up tight
Hidden away
Out of sight

Little bird
Broken and lonely
Chained by misery
Burden so heavy

Take those wings
Learn their power
Why they were given
How to use them

Look to the sky
Spread them wide
Take a deep breath
Have faith in your flight

©2011 Jill Terry


THUNDERSTRUCK

Loneliness brought her there in her darkest hour
Spinning out of control in a world collapsing
From within lifetime ago dreams he magically appeared
Though lost and broken she wished he had not found her

He brought her in from the frigid cold
Shattered the bonds that restrained her soul
Vowing never to lie, nor secrets would they keep
Her desperation and need making him weep

He offered himself wholly and the healing began
Extracting painful memories, mending old wounds
Breathing life over her, his own strength into her
Promising forever to love, protect and keep her

©2011 Jill Terry


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