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Living Death 


The minutes just keep passing

White on my wrist red on the clock 

Menacing with a secondhand 

That hangs on the wall

While the reel of visions

Unravel in my mind 

The harder I try to stop

The faster they come

Searching and found 

Unmoving on the ground 

Lifeless and stiff 

Gun by his hand 

Facedown in a river of blood 

I can’t stop either

Time passing 

Or visions from coming 

Over and over like a broken projector 

And yet it somehow all slows

As it meticulously drives me mad – 

j.a.terry 3.31.17

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SOUL SISTER

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I see you suffering and wish there was something I could do for you
I witness your pain and my own heart aches
I see you spiraling faster each day
Downward motion to nowhere land
I wonder who’ll be waiting when you reach the end
Unsure what led you to this path
You no longer walk but run these days
The shift came sudden and without any warning
Your sanity slipped and crazed madness set in
You pushed aside all that was real
Lost sight of your self completely
Chasing that ever illusive sensation
Known simply as euphoria
You haven’t a positive word to say
Allowing negativity to swallow you whole
I say these things because I know this place
Having visited and lingered a time or two
Your beauty and intelligence still shines in your eyes
Though clouded by your tears
With love and understanding I offer this prayer to the Universe
That someday soon you’ll find your way home

©JillTerry│jillterry.com


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Another day dawning
Another cathartic meltdown
Alone in an empty bed
Staring out the window at nothing

Feeling the weight
Absence of presence
Heavy on her being

And still it changes nothing
As nothing said or done
Ever has

But to turn love
To a toxic
Dangerous
Poisonous mess

Of her own accord
Of her own madness
Of her own fault

Even the brightest light
Diffused in her darkness

A star that crossed her sky
He loved her for a time
Then simply grew fond
Until one day he was
Simply gone

He reminded her of all
That she wanted to become
While she became nothing
But another scar
On his heart

They say when you die
Everyone wants to be your
Friend

©2012 jillie
Jillterry.com


TAKING REIGN

Madness comes
In many forms
I’ve recently
Come to learn

Fallen victim
Self inflicted
Lost wanderer
Innocent bystander

Watching
Hearing
Seeing
Experiencing
Feeling
Living

Something so small
Completely Insignificant
Can be the catalyst
Act as the trigger

And everything
Spirals
Comes undone

Unraveling
Weakening
Crumbling
Breaking

Until you slip
Into numbness
Leading to
Nothingness

And all your
Troubles
Seem to fade

Until you open
Your eyes
Forced to face
Another day

Everything you tried
So hard to suppress

Highlighted
Spotlighted
Illuminated

By the light
Of this new day

Realizing the
Hopelessness
While praying
For change

You can choose
To succumb
Allowing madness
To reign

Or you can
Stand up proud
Shouting aloud
Making it clear

Enough
Is enough…

©2011 Jill Terry


METHOD TO MADNESS

It’s the games created
The ones she plays
Her self the sole competitor

Of sheer necessity
For the sake of her sanity
A form of self preservation

Some would think crazy
Others might pity
A few might find pure genius

Tweaking thought process
To fool the body
Into believing an absolute falsity

Electroshock therapy
Through means of visual stimulation
Reminders of truth when all else fails

Wounds inflicted for vanquishment sake
Diminisher of torturous emotion
So conquers the physical pain

Regardless of her reasons
Why games balance reality
It matters not what others think

Just some things she does
Reminders of lost reasons
To sustain her very existence

Not because she wants to
But simply because she has to
It is what it is

It’s the method to her madness

©2011 Jill Terry


My soul sister,

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I see you suffering, and I wish there was something I could do for you.

I witness your pain, and my own heart aches.

I see you spiraling, faster each day; downward motion to nowhere land.

I wonder who’ll be waiting when you reach the end.

Unsure what led you to this path; you no longer walk, but run these days.

The shift came sudden and without any warning.

Your sanity slipped and crazed madness set in.

You pushed aside all that was real; lost sight of your self completely.

Chasing that ever illusive sensation; known simply as euphoria.

You haven’t a positive word to say; allowing negativity to swallow you whole.

I say these things, because I know this place; having visited a time or two.

Your beauty and intelligence still shines in your eyes; though clouded by your tears.

With love and understanding, I offer this prayer; that someday soon, you’ll find your way home.

© jillterry


Internal hard drive

Something about that
Penetrating gaze
Of his

As if
He’s looking
Right through

Studying the
Surface
Reading the
Expression

While searching
The cause
Within

Snickering at
The display
Emotions painted
On face

Knowing
What lingers
Inside

Certain of
Himself
Too much so
Some times

Just smile
And nod
Let it go

He strolls
In and out
Watching the
Show

Flowing like
Water
A river to
The sea

The Zen in
My path
In a place
Gone mad

Sunshine
That lights
Those dark
Days

© jillterry


Ovation

She waits
Wonders
Pines
For love lost

Just as we
All did

The same
Love
The same
Lies
Differing his pain
His troubled past

To fit each
Woman
And circumstance

Depending
On what he
Needed
Or knew he could
Take from them

I offered up the
Group of support
Gathered in the
Wings
Patiently waiting
For her to
Walk off the
Stage

She isn’t yet
Ready
Still believing
He is
Who he
Says

Ⓒjillterry


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