I see you suffering and wish there was something I could do for you
I witness your pain and my own heart aches
I see you spiraling faster each day
Downward motion to nowhere land
I wonder who’ll be waiting when you reach the end
Unsure what led you to this path
You no longer walk but run these days
The shift came sudden and without any warning
Your sanity slipped and crazed madness set in
You pushed aside all that was real
Lost sight of your self completely
Chasing that ever illusive sensation
Known simply as euphoria
You haven’t a positive word to say
Allowing negativity to swallow you whole
I say these things because I know this place
Having visited and lingered a time or two
Your beauty and intelligence still shines in your eyes
Though clouded by your tears
With love and understanding I offer this prayer to the Universe
That someday soon you’ll find your way home
She had a knack for burying things; in the secret recess of her mind. She didn’t wait for the wounds to fester, didn’t want to see the scab that was sure to leave an ugly scar, even though she knew it would eventually fade with time. She didn’t want to feel the itch as it slowly began to heal, forcing her to acknowledge each time she scratched. She didn’t want to be reminded at all, so she buried them deep, where she thought no one could ever find them. Hiding them she believed, from even herself.
Then along her path came a healer, having already glimpsed into her soul; for once they had stood toe-to-toe, in that long narrow hall leading to nowhere. He had a way of touching her, opening every wound, introducing her to catharsis, a word she soon came to loathe. Not because the outcome was undesirable in any way, but because the pain, which at times could be excruciating, she once again was forced to face; in reaching that point of purification, through unfettered emotional release. With the one who knows, maybe always knew and willingly absorbed as much pain as he could, just so she no longer suffered alone.
©2010 by Jill Terry
May the stars carry away your fear and sadness
Hold on to what is good
May the promise of spring fill your heart with beauty
Hold on to what you believe
May hope forever wash away your tears and pain
Hold on to what you must do
May your stillness in this silence make you strong
Hold on to life
Hold on to my hand
Don’t let go
Don’t ever let go…
I see you suffering, and I wish there was something I could do for you.
I witness your pain, and my own heart aches.
I see you spiraling, faster each day; downward motion to nowhere land.
I wonder who’ll be waiting when you reach the end.
Unsure what led you to this path; you no longer walk, but run these days.
The shift came sudden and without any warning.
Your sanity slipped and crazed madness set in.
You pushed aside all that was real; lost sight of your self completely.
Chasing that ever illusive sensation; known simply as euphoria.
You haven’t a positive word to say; allowing negativity to swallow you whole.
I say these things, because I know this place; having visited a time or two.
Your beauty and intelligence still shines in your eyes; though clouded by your tears.
With love and understanding, I offer this prayer; that someday soon, you’ll find your way home.
4:44 eyes open wide
Lay in the dark
Gaze at the clock
4:44 make a wish
So the final chapter
4:44 everywhere I look
Is it malicious intent
Or only mere coincidence
4:44 how to break the spell
Locate and remove the
Emotional connection chip
4:44 she looked at his photo
Saw right through
Called his emotional baggage
4:44 he died that day
Sexual abuse at such
A young age
4:44 he lost all trust
Made it his life’s mission
To punish all women
4:44 he took what he wanted
Truth of it was
I could have loved him
4:44 heartless son of a bitch
Died twice on my watch
Come to raise the dead
4:44 just go away
To your charm once more
I refuse to fall prey