Have a holiday party to attend tonight and absolutely do not want to go. This year feels harder. Last we were still spiraling in a whirlwind of chaos, but this year all is calm and there’s way too much time to think. I just don’t want to paint on a happy face and pretend to be engaged in celebration, but I’ll go and make an appearance, because not doing so would be rude. A gesture of gratitude for being invited, and giving what little I can, because that’s what we do.