Trying to channel
In pursuit of change
Anger the dominant hue
Smoldering relentlessly
Peace and solace lost
Beyond my realm of grasp
Growing more wicked
Each day that passes
Trying to release resentment
Fill the leftover spaces
Take responsibility
Devote attention
To my own faded light
My own personal growth
Acceptance of self
And what it all meant
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Jillterry.com
National Poetry Month
Longing for the day
When the last
Memory fades
And my heart
Gives way
To the lies
©2013 jillie
Jillterry.com
National Poetry Month
Insanity knocks
Incessantly
Demanding
Slowly the door
Creaks open
Grating harshly
Over broken fragments
From the inside
Blackness spews
Insanity hesitates
Enters anyway
©2013 jillie
Jillterry.com
National Poetry Month
It’s the sorting of self
When you don’t understand
How it is you really feel
what it is you really want
Believing in a time
that may or may not come
Standing still and alone
watching it pass you by
It’s the certainty of death
in having felt and watched it descend
Wrapping round taking hold
And still being unable to move
It’s the black and white questions
that cannot be answered
Truth and its consequence
No longer denied
When our lives
can’t wait for the answer
and WHY
is the unanswered question
©2013 jillie
Jillterry.com
National Poetry Month
Each time I felt myself slipping away
Body and spirit beginning to separate
Affixed with a single transparent cord
World turned grey then faded to black
Numbness set in all pain surpassed
The closer I got to deaths waiting door
Elements taken as I was snatched back away
Shadow residuals that will always remain
Left to linger as I returned from the brink
Back to life
Forever changed
©2013 jillie
Jillterry.com
National Poetry Month
Into still waters
He calmly led me
Silent . . .
In the white wave
I am no longer
Sinking
©2013 jillie
Jillterry.com
National Poetry Month
NAVIGATING DARKNESS
Plans and visions
Some divinely inspired
Our want and need
To see through fruition
Countless possibilities
Each one disheartening
When life reroutes us
With its own destination
To a place perhaps
We’re intended to be
For reasons deeper
Than our own understanding
Trials and tests
In perfect design
Awaken us from
Unconsciousness
To a deeper sense
Of reality
Struggling to maintain
The illusion of control
Loss of enabling us
A shift in perception
Within the unknown
The key can be found
Unlocking mysteries
To the universe and self
Surrendering to situation
Refusing to be prisoner
Navigating the darkness
Finding inspiration
On the other side
Of which there must be
We emerge transformed
Because of the journey
©2013 jillie
Jillterry.com
National Poetry Month
SEA GLASS
Everything crushed
Ground to sand
Washes ashore
Pebbles of glass
©2013 jillie
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National Poetry Month
Doorway to a Dream
Standing at the threshold
Having followed the sacred path
I emerged from my own crysallis
Discovering the colors of my heart
I hold the key in hand
Unlocks the doorway to a dream
I give all I have in offering
Yet still am not bade entry
©2013 jillie
Jillterry.com
National Poetry Month
