Now and Then
The Power of Now tells us that we’re captives of our own minds and the only way to set ourselves free and live in the now is to learn to turn it off – our minds that is. The book is very repetitive and I’ve only finished the first chapter, but I think I’ve had enough. Had I known it was an Oprah pick I would have left it on the discount table for just that reason, but at $3.95 I snatched it up, read a few lines and stuck it in my basket!
Turing off and tuning out is the first step I learned in my meditative practices and has always been a relatively easy task for me – but I’m thinking I might have accidentally tripped the breaker switch, or possibly blown an unidentifiable fuse, as I can’t seem to turn it on and get back in the groove.
That’s right – I’m suffering from lack of original thought. It’s Tuesday and since I returned to my real life on Monday, I’ve had at least five different people converse with me, only to stop mid-sentence and ask where they hell I am…
This is not good.
It’s not like writer’s block that I’ve suffered in the past – when I had thoughts and stories in my head and couldn’t get them out – this is completely different and a little bit frightening – as if there’s a void and while sights, sounds and experiences are continuing to go in, nothing seems to be sticking – it just flows right back out and then I’m left with dark, silent blankness again.
Is there a doctor in the house?
been there.. actually thought I was having a stroke or something..this happens to me everytime change is on the way.
adam
That’s very interesting…and sort of cool - to be able to detect and prepare for change that’s coming!
And yes, I actually did consider that I too might be having a stroke - but I think it’s a combination of the new allergy medication and me still being in vaca mode - hope so anyway!
2 aspirins, 2 cups of coffee, chicken soup for lunch, tell whoever bugs you to shut the fuck up, wear your sunglasses indoors and out, McDonald’s Happy Meal for dinner, Gatorade, and go to bed at a decent hour. That should do it.
Thank you, doctor - I’ll take that under advisement!
I definitely think it is that you are still in “vaca” mode! Why would we want to leave such a “safe and peacful place as vaca mode”? I never want to leave that state….and come to think of it….it has been a while since I was there…..damn! You will come through this…..I have no doubt….!
Let’s get real here…YOU ARE MISSING YOUR AFTERNOON SIESTAS.
(and your Mom!)
I think you nailed it, little mama!